什么时候？

什么时候我变成大家心目中很outspoken的人？什么时候我竟然变得如此火爆脾气？什么时候我可以那么大胆跟老板谈判？真的是什么时候开始的？我真的不知道。我想是很自然的。现在同事都说我是什么工会的代表之类的，说实在，我不想咯。这样下去，老板也许会认为我是一个“搞事棍”。他们都说我很牛很有火，也许是因为每一次跟他们谈一些事情时，我都会显得很直接了当。也许是因为在荷兰待久了，也也许是我本来就是这样的人，或许是因为在中国培养出来的坏习惯。无论如何，跟老板谈判没有什么结果，但是能做的都做了，还有剩下来的是看大家如何做了。。。

When did I become someone that everyone thinks outspoken? When did I become so aggressive? When did I become so "gutsy" to negotiate with big bosses? And, when did everything start? Well, honestly I have no idea. I guess it just happened naturally. Now, colleagues told me I am some sort of representative of some sort of non-existing union. Honestly, I don't want to because probably big bosses would think I am those employees who generate a lot of chaos within the company. They said I am very passionate and aggressive. I guess perhaps everytime when I discuss something with them, I talked straightforward. Probably because I have stayed in Netherlands for too long, or probably I am really this type of people, or maybe because I got all this from staying in China. Anyhow, the discussion with our big bosses on the shuttle bus issue led no way. Next really depends on what we could do...